Listening to a grey album from way down in the collection
baker baker
baking a cake
make me a day
make me whole again
and i wonder
if he's ok
if you see him
say hi
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greeting the monster in our easter dresses
father says bow your head like the good book says
well i think the good book is missing some pages
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getting off getting off
while they're all downstairs
singing prayers
sing away
he's in my pumpkin p.j.'s
lay your book
on my chest
feel the word
feel it
And for every and all fans of Tori Amos, I warmly and strongly recommend www.hereinmyhead.com
Apparently I am a Fat Cat
From last nights Swedish Grammies:
Other nice winners were Anna Ternheim (although I haven't heard her last album) and Veronica Maggio (best newcomer).
Årets Artist [Artist of the Year]
The Knife
Årets Album [Album of the Year]
The Knife: "Silent shout", Rabid
Årets Popgrupp [Pop Group of the Year]
The Knife: "Silent shout", Rabid
Årets Producent [Producer otY]
Karin Drejer Andersson/Olof Drejer: "Silent shout", Rabid
Årets Kompositör [Composer otY]
Karin Drejer Andersson/Olof Drejer: "Silent shout", Rabid
Årets Musik-dvd [Music DVD otY]
The Knife: "Silent shout - an audio visual experience", Rabid
Other nice winners were Anna Ternheim (although I haven't heard her last album) and Veronica Maggio (best newcomer).
With all the grain of babylon
Well, so whats new.
Well, the The Decemberists new album "The Crane Wife" is awesome. More all over the place than the last one, but still wow. Colins voice is like a knife to your throat. Or a hand on your thigh. Listen here.
And the war came with all the poise of a cannonball
The Knife album "Silent Shout", which I only recently procured, is also omnificent. Or some word that really exists. It's dark, electric, scary, and beautiful.
Sharpen my body like a pen
Food
Take:
- 100g almonds, chopp'em
- handful of raisins
- two cloves of garlic, chopped finely
- some onios, shalott, chopped finely
- 200g Quorn
- Some fresh spinach,
- Two chopped peppers
- 200-400g of semoule grains (called couscous in sweden, cooking instrucions on package)
NEW SHOOT OUT SURPRISES FEW
The day is getting better with each step
I know now that the darkness outside is filled with tiny insects
But stepping out scares them and they gather together in a ball in the sky
Some call it the moon
Where can we go
Where can we hide
In fact, where are we actually
Is this my country or yours
Or theirs
but the touch of whisky still reaches me
behind all this protection
below all this rubble
I know now that the darkness outside is filled with tiny insects
But stepping out scares them and they gather together in a ball in the sky
Some call it the moon
And while the seagulls are cryingThe fighter jets scream as they pass
We fall but our souls are flying
Where can we go
Where can we hide
In fact, where are we actually
Is this my country or yours
Or theirs
The gun felt clumsy in his handsMy lips are numb for the most part
Alien
Malignant
/
The gun felt heavy in his hands
he knows he couldn't lift it
all the strength was going out of him in waves of searing pain
but the touch of whisky still reaches me
behind all this protection
below all this rubble
And the whisky was flowing..and on a.nother note new photos have been added to :a£@$∞∞÷o foto:
Like never before
As folks just shake their heads
And pour
I don't know who
"I´ll never be what you want me to be
but it´s alright
I´m gonna make you love me
I´m gonna dry all your tears
and we´re gonna stay together for a million years"
"Draw back the curtains and smile.. everythings..
...wow".
I'm out
on the other side. Outside there is a glistening coat of blue and gold on the world. Little white particles are whirling around, twinkling in the sunlight.
Work is fine.
I'm still a bit worried about the photo shoot on tuesday, but it'll be.. ok. It'll just have to be. If not, I think I will quit. Move on to my own stuff that doesn't need approval of anyone else.
Well, no time for shit chat, betta go down the lab and shoot some lasers.
Hasta pronto chiquitas
I'm out
on the other side. Outside there is a glistening coat of blue and gold on the world. Little white particles are whirling around, twinkling in the sunlight.
Work is fine.
I'm still a bit worried about the photo shoot on tuesday, but it'll be.. ok. It'll just have to be. If not, I think I will quit. Move on to my own stuff that doesn't need approval of anyone else.
Well, no time for shit chat, betta go down the lab and shoot some lasers.
Hasta pronto chiquitas
Sunday, moody sunday
Today I'm taking a day off. Well, I know it's sunday, but it's a different kind of day off. A strong feeling of being lost inside me has been turning the whole weekend sour, and now I'm just gonna let it come and do whatever. Stay in my room, watch cartoons and see if the darkness can really take me."sitting in my glasshouse
while your ghost is sleeping down the hall
watching the little birds fly
kamikaze missions into the walls
think i'm gonna stay in today
sit on my couch and watch them fall"
No, I dont know, it's far from that dramatic. I just dont feel like meeting or talking to anyone today. Don't need to have to put up a smile or a joke. At least thats how Im feeling right now. Like the glass house ani's talking about. Like there's half an inch, cool transparent barrier between me and whatever else there is.
Little did he know..
The four worst words in the English language: We need to talk.
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I am having one of those painful saturdays, when I'm just shuffling around. Not able to commit to anything in particular, I feel a slight stress for the time that is passing by without me taking any care of it. Should I cook something, eat something, do something? I don't know. I try to read but there is no serenety. I got a little distressed this morning when I started thinking about how I am involved in several things that I really feel end up more as a burden than as a joy or something fun.
My mind works like this in a not so funny way. I can easily get stuck in negative loops. None of the thoughts I am having now are different from this morning, I rather haven't been able to move on. And on top of it, I feel like something got unhinged with my Girl this morning because of my mood. I hope not.
Well, I'll try to perk up. Tonight we'll be having pie and salad for dinner. Probably feta-cheese and peppers for one pie, and another with a sort of tex-mex style. Maybe we'll bake bread. Watch a movie. Go to sleep.
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Last night we went to see Stranger than fiction. It was a sweet little movie, made so much better by the actors (Ferrell, Gyllenhaal, Hoffman and Thompson). Warmly recommended.
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I am having one of those painful saturdays, when I'm just shuffling around. Not able to commit to anything in particular, I feel a slight stress for the time that is passing by without me taking any care of it. Should I cook something, eat something, do something? I don't know. I try to read but there is no serenety. I got a little distressed this morning when I started thinking about how I am involved in several things that I really feel end up more as a burden than as a joy or something fun.
My mind works like this in a not so funny way. I can easily get stuck in negative loops. None of the thoughts I am having now are different from this morning, I rather haven't been able to move on. And on top of it, I feel like something got unhinged with my Girl this morning because of my mood. I hope not.
Well, I'll try to perk up. Tonight we'll be having pie and salad for dinner. Probably feta-cheese and peppers for one pie, and another with a sort of tex-mex style. Maybe we'll bake bread. Watch a movie. Go to sleep.
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Last night we went to see Stranger than fiction. It was a sweet little movie, made so much better by the actors (Ferrell, Gyllenhaal, Hoffman and Thompson). Warmly recommended.
Learning
Work is becoming more stimulating lately. I sort of made that little extra effort that was needed to push things forward and now some balls are rolling, so to speak. Examples: today I spent a while learning the basics and I now have access to a Scanning Electron Microscope, which will allow me to look at really tiny things and make big conclusions (hopefully). Its really cool, anyway, when your looking at things that are smaller than a tenth of the thickness of a human hair.
And then tomorrow I will be re-aquainted, quite happily, with some organic chemistry. It's time to learn about sol-gel extraction by simple solvent reactions. Basically I will be looking at my material to see how much of it has reacted and connected to form a polymer network, and how much hasnt.
Now it's up up and away from work (as I am not working so hard it seems) and onto some workout (ooh! Core!) and then an evening of Man Things (drinking beer and being generally pessimistic, pissed off and retarded) with K.
Much luv n things
"J'ai un passé
Mais je m'en sers pas"
And then tomorrow I will be re-aquainted, quite happily, with some organic chemistry. It's time to learn about sol-gel extraction by simple solvent reactions. Basically I will be looking at my material to see how much of it has reacted and connected to form a polymer network, and how much hasnt.
Now it's up up and away from work (as I am not working so hard it seems) and onto some workout (ooh! Core!) and then an evening of Man Things (drinking beer and being generally pessimistic, pissed off and retarded) with K.
Much luv n things
"J'ai un passé
Mais je m'en sers pas"
I have lost my voice
the one I use to write anyway. So instead, here's what Uppsala looked like tonight, to me:
Short
I had a small ambition that I's start writing more in 2007. It still remains to be seen.
Another thought I had was that it would be fun to start a cooperative blog. As in, together with someone else, and preferably with some form of subject at hand. I have no real idea on what we should write or with who. I am open for suggestions. My primary inspirations in this issue I guess would be that one of my friends writes for bloggywood.se, and other, more embarrasing co-blogs.
Now, I am finally done with a few hours of transmission measurements on zinc oxide contact layers (what you will find on many flat screens for example) and am ready to go home.
Another thought I had was that it would be fun to start a cooperative blog. As in, together with someone else, and preferably with some form of subject at hand. I have no real idea on what we should write or with who. I am open for suggestions. My primary inspirations in this issue I guess would be that one of my friends writes for bloggywood.se, and other, more embarrasing co-blogs.
Now, I am finally done with a few hours of transmission measurements on zinc oxide contact layers (what you will find on many flat screens for example) and am ready to go home.
If I stopped lying I'd just disappoint you
Regarding the previous whining post and it's comment, I just thought I should underline and develop.
I've gotten a lot of positive responses, compliments and support since the introduction of my web page. In fact, those responses far outnumber any negative responses. And I am very glad for it. I wasn't really whining, actually, it was more like a reaction at the fact that the first response, that is the quickest, was a negative one. Also, it did shake me up a little at first, but since I didn't even know the guy it evaporated rapidly. The point I wanted to make with my original post was that I believe that in the internet communication channel is much easier for people to be rude to strangers, even if they would never do such a thing in real life.
And since I'm here: Thanks everybody for your very flattering comments and messages regarding my photos. Luv ya
Now I gotta works
I've gotten a lot of positive responses, compliments and support since the introduction of my web page. In fact, those responses far outnumber any negative responses. And I am very glad for it. I wasn't really whining, actually, it was more like a reaction at the fact that the first response, that is the quickest, was a negative one. Also, it did shake me up a little at first, but since I didn't even know the guy it evaporated rapidly. The point I wanted to make with my original post was that I believe that in the internet communication channel is much easier for people to be rude to strangers, even if they would never do such a thing in real life.
And since I'm here: Thanks everybody for your very flattering comments and messages regarding my photos. Luv ya
Now I gotta works
Can you guess who?
So unimpressed but so in awe
Such a saint but such a whore
So self aware so full of shit
So indecisive so adamant
I'm contemplating thinking about thinking
It's overrated just get another drink and
Watch me come undone
They're selling razor blades and mirrors in the street
I pray that when I'm coming down you'll be asleep
If I ever hurt you your revenge will be so sweet
Because I'm scum, and I'm your son,
I come undone
Such a saint but such a whore
So self aware so full of shit
So indecisive so adamant
I'm contemplating thinking about thinking
It's overrated just get another drink and
Watch me come undone
They're selling razor blades and mirrors in the street
I pray that when I'm coming down you'll be asleep
If I ever hurt you your revenge will be so sweet
Because I'm scum, and I'm your son,
I come undone
The glory of feedback and the unkindness of strangers
So, on "launching"/announcing my new website I sent an email to a bunch of people, including to the mailinglist ("fotonorr") of my photo club. Seeing as the main content of my site was photographs, I thought that would be quite alright. Since I am a bit of a joker, I tweaked the actual content of the message to appear as one of many spam/bullshit emails. Just for kicks (you can read the content of the message :below:), you know.
Well, having done this turned out to star a chain reaction which resulted in my very first feedback to look like this:
I always considered that one of the objectives of art was to provoke and stir up feelings, but I hadn't realised that I would acquire that target so fast... No, but seriously, I was actually surprised to see that someone was so offended by the email (i doubt his comment was regarding my site content) as to actually send such a response. And my second reaction was that it's kind of a shame that the ones that actually take the time to respond are the ones who dislike something.
But I guess, the fault is my own for trying to get reactions out of people. So here's to you, anonymous jerk with no sense of humour or decency:
Thanks for noticing.
Well, having done this turned out to star a chain reaction which resulted in my very first feedback to look like this:
Re: [fotonorr] What you need to know
From: Jesper Lundgren (email adress omitted)
Date: Saturday, 6 January, 2007 10:19:46 PM
To: Per -Oskar Westin [peroskarwestin@yahoo.co.uk]
IDIOT
I always considered that one of the objectives of art was to provoke and stir up feelings, but I hadn't realised that I would acquire that target so fast... No, but seriously, I was actually surprised to see that someone was so offended by the email (i doubt his comment was regarding my site content) as to actually send such a response. And my second reaction was that it's kind of a shame that the ones that actually take the time to respond are the ones who dislike something.
But I guess, the fault is my own for trying to get reactions out of people. So here's to you, anonymous jerk with no sense of humour or decency:
Thanks for noticing.
2006 was a lot of guitar, actually
It's high time to make a summary of 2006, musicwise. Usually, looking back at the new music and artists you've heard the last year makes you remember who was there, who passed you that cd or mp3, or what song was playing when you fooled around with that girl. To help me summarize, I have my :iTunes: playlist and my :Last.fm: statistics.
I might not be razor sharp in my assessment of chronology etc. I might even mistakenly include some music from 2005 (the memory is a funny thing, tends to mix things up and condense them together). And to be clear, I mean what I've been listening to. I don't really care when things were released.
iTunes most played (arbitrarily rearranged to suit my fancy)
:The Decemberists: - Picaresque
Is one of these records I'm really not that sure is from 2005 or 2006. But clearly I've been listening to it alot, and it stands out thanks to the characteristic voice of the singer, and the slightly slavic influences in the music.
:Kings of Convenience:
Not a new finding, but an ever present favourite.
:Tears for Fears:
It came as a total surprise when I saw them as a few of the most played songs. But then I remembered a few cds I got a hold of late last year, old TFF greats, which will explain it.
I had to scroll down a little and interpolate to get to the ones that feel new.
:Damien Rice: - 9
Damien released his second album this fall, and it soared into my top most played, effortlessly as a helium-filled baloon. Damiens album is quite raw, technically, with simple recordings and arrangements that allow his beautiful and emotional voice carry the sparse poetry of his lyrics into your head.
:Lilium: - Transmissions of all the good byes
This is really one of the pow! records of the year. Two guys from the group :16 horsepower: wrote some music and gathered with them a few eclectic musicians and singers to fuse a timeless masterpiece. Get it. Now.
:Psapp: - Tiger, my friend
Light, airy music, that I would liken to triphop, but lets not argue about that. It's eclectic. It's groovy as a hammock. And the sound is unique.
Of course :Regina Spektor: - Begin to hope
Regina takes her singing to a higher level. No, a higher plane of existance. It's gorgeous, all mixed up, and impossible not to love.
and finally :The White Birch: - Star is just a sun
which I ordered by recommendation (the recommendation was years ago..) of a friend. At first I didn't like i. Too whimpy voice. To slow and unimpressive. But then the music grew, like a slow sunrise, and settled at that point just before the first slice of solar disc peeks above the horizon. It is serene, calm, both ominous and hopeful, and hopelessly beautiful.
:David Gray: - Lost songs
It just grew and grew. And now I love him, and am not surprised at the 260 plays registered at last.fm, since I know I mosly listened to him on my portable player ther real number will be a lot larger. Good lyrics. Guitar singer/songwriting with some good studio work as well. I listened to several of his albums this year but Lost songs is the most outstanding in my memory.
:Thom Yorke: - The Eraser
Long awaited debut album. Reverberating. Breathtaking. Just right.
:Midaircondo: - Shopping for images
I had the fortune to see Midaircondo while attending the Stockholm jazz celebration in march, and was stunned. Three ridiculously beautiful girls, with a laptop each, some samplers and some instruments rocked the entire house. To me, this was something so rare as something truly new, unheard of before. It was technically impressing, musically inspired, and above all (always above all) it was beautiful. Live improvisation and musical cooperation as I had never seen it, made the show totally spellbinding. I bought the cd that night (which of course can never convey the same experience as the live one, but still is good) and also had the fortune of catching them again at the Arvika Festival last summer.
Mixed in with all of this, it was the old favourites - Tom Waits, Ani Difranco, Tori Amos, Foo Fighter, Diane Cluck, Company Flow, Deltron 3030, Tiger Lou and Radiohead - that made my musical 2006.
New site launch
Hi
You have been randomly selected. Out of millions of emailadresses that our software was able to suck up as it has been sweeping the internet 24 hours a day for a month, yours was one that didn't manage to filter this message out as spam, adware or a possible virus threat.
You are so lucky.
Now, go to
http://www.peroskar .se
and enjoy responsibly.
Touch and then stay in touch.
Sincerely
your friend
:peroskar:at: yahoo.co. uk
You have been randomly selected. Out of millions of emailadresses that our software was able to suck up as it has been sweeping the internet 24 hours a day for a month, yours was one that didn't manage to filter this message out as spam, adware or a possible virus threat.
You are so lucky.
Now, go to
http://www.peroskar .se
and enjoy responsibly.
Touch and then stay in touch.
Sincerely
your friend
:peroskar:at: yahoo.co. uk
Soon this place will be to small
Good day today. I felt a reverberating joy of approaching a life that I have only encountered by happenstance earlier. I left the door at 7:30 this morning and returned at 00'00. I revel in the ability, the state of readiness, that allows one to live out the days more or less independently of ones home. I hadn't any plans when I went to work this morning. But I did do a double take, making sure I had some of the essentials that spontaneity might require: money, condoms, mittens and a pen and pad. As it turned out on this particular day all i needed was the mittens, but still..
After work I passed by my girlfriends house, and she made me dinner. I hope I thanked her properly. While there I also got to feel like "a man" since I managed to show her some things to do with her new computer. Gosh.
Then a friend of mine had put forward the idea of whisky and helping him with his new mac. I did go there with the intention of being helpful, but me and his other friend ended up watching the original John Carpenter "Attack on Precinct 13" while my friend was left to face the endless fight with soft and hard ware on his own. I think things worked out.
Anyway, if you take something away from this rant is that I profoundly believe that autonomy on a individual level is a great source for (the sensation and appreciation of) freedom, and can be a great gateway to unexpected and lovely things. Keep your iPods close, and your VISA closer, that you may go where you choose, when you choose, and enjoy the way there.
Good night. Stay tuned. I will be trying to claw my way back to regular blogging.
Funny, no quotes this time... WoooOOOooo
After work I passed by my girlfriends house, and she made me dinner. I hope I thanked her properly. While there I also got to feel like "a man" since I managed to show her some things to do with her new computer. Gosh.
Then a friend of mine had put forward the idea of whisky and helping him with his new mac. I did go there with the intention of being helpful, but me and his other friend ended up watching the original John Carpenter "Attack on Precinct 13" while my friend was left to face the endless fight with soft and hard ware on his own. I think things worked out.
Anyway, if you take something away from this rant is that I profoundly believe that autonomy on a individual level is a great source for (the sensation and appreciation of) freedom, and can be a great gateway to unexpected and lovely things. Keep your iPods close, and your VISA closer, that you may go where you choose, when you choose, and enjoy the way there.
Good night. Stay tuned. I will be trying to claw my way back to regular blogging.
Funny, no quotes this time... WoooOOOooo
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