Hats

Photo by FotoPetter. Hat, tie and photoshop by me.

Boom-shak-a-lak

You think you'll be strong and indifferent. That it wont really affect you. And then you stand there and it is all so o very real. And hard as f*ckin flint and smooth as f*ckin silk. And it really takes more than conviction, more than safe, sane, stability to keep walking. Anyway.

The weekend has landed

Friday.
The remarkable spring weather continues here in Uppsala. Everyone seems, and probably is, happier and more light-hearted. I wore shorts outside yesterday for the first time this year. And it wasn't that bad. As I was cycling home I found myself challengning the people I passed with a defiant look. Many heads were shook.
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My talk yesterday went quite well. Their was some sort of reporter there, and he kept trying to make smart-ass questions (to most of the speakers). He asked me why his golf course couldn't use solar power to pump up some sort of irrigation waters, because of the large surface areas it would need. How the H*ll am I supposed to know? What kind of pump did he use? What sort of power did he need? No specifications, he just wanted solar to look bad. Of course, any sort of smart answer didn't come to me at the time, and I just stood there, stumped, and said I couldn't really make any comments on that particular case. Fortunately, there was a woman involved in solar present and she pointed out that using solar for water pumps was actually a very common application in developing countries. Thanks for having my back.
In general, the whole seminar was interesting, I got to learn some stuff about other renewable energy suorces and the possibilities that lie ahead. And there was no outward conflict between the different technologies, something that comes up surprisingly often at other times. There seemed to be room for all renewable alternatives.
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Then yesterday evening we were invited with our foto club to a chocolate tasting event at the local photoshop. Very nice..
Opps, gotta work.
Bye

Lost in translation

Sorry this only works in swedish:

Lyssnar precis på Ekot i P1 och i en intervju ställer reportern frågan:
-Vad tror du att det här betyder för svinen på Alliansen?
Tyvärr så hörde jag fel, och han sa egentligen
-Vad tror du att det här betyder för synen på Alliansen?

Low blood, sugar

I am feeling faint. My heartbeats seem to big for my body. Light and large, like batting wings of a big butterfly. If I stand still I can feel how each beat is swaying my body back and forth. Like a flag pole without a flag. As I gaze out to the parking lot, the sky above is steel gray. Somewhere there must be a sun shining. I can see a tiny star, reflected cautiously in the red varnish of a delivery van.

Debauchery

Your blouse your skirt
I'll undo them so gentle
With beautiful care

I'm a lonely man
With five bottles of wine
I'd like you to share

Praise

If you haven't, listen to Jeff Buckleys version of Leonard Cohens Halelujah. Most people who covered the song did so on Jeff Buckleys altered version and not the Cohen original. And fair enough, the lyrics are more complex and the performance is amazing. My second favourite is the version by Elisa, and the original comes in a bronze medal.
Just a tip.

Up

Some news:
-In about a week I'll hold a talk in Sthlm for something called Energipuls, arranged by Energiledargruppen. I'll talk about solar cells, how the world market and the technology has evolved in the roughly 50 years since the first cell was made at Bell labs in the 50s, why it isn't cheap, and why it will only get cheaper.
-Then, at the end of march I'll go to Ghent in Belgium for a workshop on thin film solar cell modelling (with computers that is). It looks like a pretty city and I think it will be a good, worthwhile thing to do. + it's been too long since I was travelling and I sure am looking forward to the brief pause and opening of the eyes that it usually means.
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The Knife:
"For a reasonable salary
I will wash the world"

The mud

been having a few really bad days. tired and flushed. maybe a little feverish. i can't put my finger on it, which is how it usually is, I guess. i fear that maybe it's part stress related. could it be? sure it could. but this is not close to one of my more stressful periods, so im half thinking and half hoping its just a bug. some virus bringing me down, messing with my mind.
today, the Girl stopped by. i leaned in close to feel her breath on my face as she spoke. she made me feel a lot better while she was here.
now I've watched casino royale, and was it good? well, it was bond thats for sure. they seem to have settled on a recipe that works. the initial chase scene was well choreographed, stunning stunt work. the babes were babes, but less exposure than lately? and naturally couldn't be trusted. it's no fun being bond, whether he likes it or not, it's short term relationships for life.
i hope to get out of this muddy sink hole i am in right now. i always think back to the analysis we made while reading the remake och robinson crusoe by whatshisname, some french guy, in french class. robinson had a period when all he did was sit in a hole of mud, trying to not think, just drifting away slowly from life. finally he took a hold of himself and got out though. maybe I will too.
my back hurts lika a b'tch also, cuz I havent been making it to the gym for a few weeks. it just piles up and makes me want to explode it.

that same old burroghs line is ringing in my head, and im not sure he didn't borrow it from hemingway:
"it came in a puff
the wind that makes the candle flicker
a sudden evil-smelling emptyness"
on that note, let's all have a care-free weekend.