You think you're just gonna turn a leaf and things will change, and stay changed. But f*ck, nothing ever really changes. Except the weather. Which can make or break your day.
So I guess, there's no need to bother. Don't knock yourself bloody trying to solve problems, cuz there'll always be problems.
Actually, forget it. I have no new insights. I am just really confused at the moment. A night ago I felt like dying. Like I was dying, or maybe wanted to be dying. I haven't felt so out of breath for as long as I can remeber. And still it was one of the best nights can recall. It was a long dark corridor of reality, and I could never have gotten through it alone. Without someone else, what's the point of any experience. If a tree falls in the woods, and only one person is there to hear it, what's the point of it making a sound? It will still be lost in time, like tears in rain.
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http://www.mycathatesyou.com/cats/2005/12/13
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And she whispers that everything not only will be, but is, ok
i didn't really notice
when everything else disappeared
but as far as i'm concerned
if it isn't her
it isn't here
