The bassline of addiction

Today, this afternoon, I am drinking too much coffee again. It's like with alcohol. You can see it, feel it, know what is going to happend. But you don't stop it. Don't stop yourself. Why? Indeed. There is something in the consumtion (self destruction), conceptually set apart from the obvious effects (intoxication, exhiliration) that lure you. That lure me. As far as I know, you could be one of those. Who don't. Don't drink coffee. Don't drink alcohol. But I am not one of those. I am weaker in some ways than that, wouldn't say no. Wouldn't say stop. Until I know for sure the damages outweigh the benefits.