News says it's rainin in Uppsala

I feel like someone handed me a stemin bag of shit
and then charged me 40£ for it.

Don't like Ryan air. I will henceforth use this moment as proof that always being ridiculously early and playing with margins the size of the english channel [is a good thing (author's note, three days after the post..)]. We missed the checkin time and guess what? Bend over.

Fix me a highball, I'm going to get good and tight

I decided to go to Scotland. Leaving tonight. Back sometime next week, if I live to tell.

Replacement killer

Samurai
You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile


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They all went to heaven in a little row boat

Perhaps the Luger?



We have a new type of rule now not one man rule or rule of aristocracy or plutocracy, but of small groups elevated to positions of absolute power by random pressures and subject to political and economic factors that leave little room for decision. They're representatives of abstract forces who've reached power through surrender of self. The iron will dictator is a thing of the past. There will be no more Stalins, no more Hitlers. The rulers of this most insecure of all worlds are rulers by accident, inept, frightened pilots at the controls of a vast machine they cannot understand, bringing in experts to tell them which buttons to push.

by William S Burroughs who inspired me to become a writer (which by the way I haven't)...

Like a cannonball

The town is filling up with sunshine and small assed women
and the only thing I can think of are dark things
like coffee and the cold blue surrounding a drowning man.

Aj

i'm trying to make new memories
in cities where we fell in love
my head just barely above
the darkest water i've ever known


Cynism, dessillusion?
Jag känner allt mer att jag aldrig igen kommer att bli kär i någon. Och med detta följer den alldeles mer skrämmande insikten att jag aldrig mer kommer att vara riktigt broken hearted. Oj det blev på svenska. Nån slags ärlighet antar jag.

Stop me, won't you, if you've heard this one before

I have the answer: Its... Radio!!!

Q: Vad är det första prinsessan Madeleine gör på morgonen?
A: Klär på sig och går hem.
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Q: What is the first thing (swedish) princess Madeleine does in the morning?
A: Gets dressed and goes home.

A full deck of rubber necks

What is a wake up call. Try not to feel a little ashamed when you feel relieved and justified to hear your co-worker is considering sick leave because of the stressful environment and the inability to let things go. Maybe it's not just me after all. Maybe there is something a little askew with this organisation. I feel sorry for her though, that it should have to go that far, and I also start wondering exactly how far away from that am I? Not that I've felt this as something horrible, just a sllight annoyance, a little irritation. Cue a hundred more days of that. It might just be enough, a chinese water torture of the modern world.
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I read Souly's blog, so I feel the need to talk a little music. Saw a live act on friday, a swedish guy called Borgert (forgot the first name) with "his" band Holy Madre. It was like a good Håkan Hellström, without the teenie-bopping crowd-pleasing shenanigans. Just good popmusic, good lyrics.
Other than that my headphones blare out:
-PJ Harvey - Nickel under your foot (peel sessions)
-Placebo - 36 degrees, second sight, special needs
-Radiohead - Fog(again)
-Transwagon
-Pj Harvey - This mess we're in

Musical dissapointment is that Laleh cancelled her show in Uppsala. Why? Dunno. Doncare. Isucks.

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These days have otherwise been filled with considerable amount of videogamin, Xbox, playing Zelda. It's not all that good. I've played a few games extremely superior to this drivel. But there is the need to finish it though. Not a strong one though.
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Ta

Enunciate!

"So, what do you think of the new Poop?"
-Heard this morning on a radio interview regerding His Holiness' visit to Cologne/Köln.

The Chimneysweep

Yeah, so anyway, monday night i went down to see a visiting italian friend, on a touristic adventure in sweden with 4 friends. We met up in a sunny and B-E-A-Utiful capital city, strolled around and caught up on people places and things. Then, inevitable, they (and I, I guess, but I prefer so consider myself a spectator) did the restaurant treasure hunt. Wandering around, getting more and more hungry but not able to settle for any place in particular for reasons of price, selection, location, blabla; which usually, as it did tonight, ends with an expensive place with so-so food. I REALLY enjoyed dinner, some weird fish (the guilt is nagging at me) with a great sauce and a baked potato. It was expensive as hell though, and I nuked this months budget on that dinner. Shame.
In alles it was a pleasent night, but it's always hard when there is a language barrier. Italian is hard when your playing it one-on-five. So I mostly got to practice my spanish with C.
Then there was the great end of the evening when I, not for the first time, misjudged the availability of trains and buses going between stohlm and uppsala. I had a few desparing minutes on the central station until I remembered I have a brother, who lives outside of stockholm. He saved me with a couch and has now also lent me his nintendo X-BOX which will severly decimate my "free time". But OH, man its a nice feeling playing video games. I miss it so much. It's gonna be a blast trying to get through Zelda - Windwalker (orwhateveathenamewas) in a few weeks of concentrated gameplay.
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ok time to play
see yall next year

I'm alpha kdup

Giddy.

Nothin wrong with him a 100$ wont fix


Here are some photos that I nicked from my brother. It's from my grammas birthday celebration earlier this summer. First there's me with gramma and grampa, then me, gramps, brother G+one, dad, brother M. Then just me. A lot of me, but in the words of Willam Burroughs, "What are you here for?". Enjoy.








And what I would like to say is
Right now
I feel like truly
Falling between the cracks

Tom Waits for no man


And i'm lost in the window, and i hide in the stairway
And i hang in the curtain, and i sleep in your hat...
And no one brings anything small into a bar around here
They all started out with bad directions
And the girl behind the counter has a tattooed tear
"one for every year he's away", she said
Such a crumbling beauty, ah
There's nothing wrong with her that a hundred dollars won't fix
She has that razor sadness that only gets worse
With the clang and the thunder of the southern pacific going by
And the clock ticks out like a dripping faucet
'Til you're full of rag water and bitters and blue ruin
And you spill out over the side to anyone who will listen...
And i've seen it all, i've seen it all
Through the yellow windows of the evening train...

I am feeling a little buscemi

stuck in stockholm last night with no trains and no buses - thank the Maker for brothers

So, I took a test...

Emo Kid
You are 42% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 42% Arrogant.
You are the Emo Kid, best described as a quiet pussy! You tend to be an intuitive rather than a logical thinker, meaning you rely more on your feelings than your thoughts. Not only that, but you are introverted, gentle, and rather humble. You embody all the traits of the perfect emo kid. You are a push-over, an emotional thinker, gentle to the extent of absurdity, and so humble that it even makes Jesus puke. If you write poetry, you no doubt write angsty, syrupy lines about depression, sadness, and other such redundant states of emo-being. Your personality is defective because you are too gentle, rather underconfident in yourself, decidely lacking in any rational thought, and also a bit too inhibited.

I probably made you cry, didn't I? Fucking Emo Kid.

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Smartass.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hippie, the Televangelist, and the Starving Artist.

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If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 27% on Extroversion
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You scored higher than 0% on Brutality
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You scored higher than 41% on Arrogance
Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid

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A crab's eye on the end of a stalk

I was just struck with an unbearable fatigue. The way you can only feel on a friday afternoon. Will my legs carry me home? Will my feet lead my way to safety? I want to give someone somethin beautiful, in a box that says "I am transporting a treasure" and on the beutiful something will be a note that says "I am a treasure". Or maybe it needs to be printed to a tshirt.
I had an vision of impulsively getting a tattoo this weekend. Just walking in to the parlor and doing it. It needs to be done soon, I am even more sure now than ever what it will be and where. Chances that I will actually go trough with it? 10%? 15%? And the weird part is that what really keeps me from doing it is the cost. I'd feel superficial and vain as fcuk for doing it, when that very sum of money could save x number of lives, free tibet, stop global warming and cure cancer. It's getting harder and harder to spend...
On a related topic I heard a radio interview the other day. It seems the swedish public are slow and reluctant on embracing the "fair trade" products that are available. The woman in the interview, who was an ex-head of one of the largest ehm, you know food store chain thingys, had the theory that the swedish people, traditionally under a solid socialist rule (don't try to pretend it's not embedded in our culture), are so used to having a governmentally controlled economic system that they ASSUME that whatever is dished out within our border has passed some form of control. Well, get wise, it hasn't.
And then there was the discussion about ecological products and how they didn't contain less poisons than the "normal" goods. It bugged the hell out of me that no one in the debate made the obvious deduction that the poisonous herbacides and pesticides that are showered over the "normal" crops then MUST be either in the ground where crops grow (seeping quietly like cancer down to the ground water, off to the seas) or in the people that harvest and grow them (i.e. the poor, exploited third world workers that are mutilated, killed and crippled so that you, yes you and me, can buy cheaper shinier friuts and veg. I got so aggravated by the piss-bag that kept saying that there was No reason to buy ecological food. Whatta dumbfuck asshole shit for brains. Ahhahhaha.. I like getting a little pissed off. It doesn't happend that often cuz I usually keep this side repressed in order not to go insane from the despair of looking at the world today.
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My goodness, jesus louiseus.. Sorry bout the rant. Back all blasé and sarcastic some other day.
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I'm gonna start up a poker game, weekly or biweekly. Wanna join? I'm not even joking. Call me.

Tropical storm in a milk glass

Could someone please send me information about the Green House effect. Because I keep hearing that there is No Substantial Evidence for it's existance. And, yes, the problem is that I do believe in it, but I would like som sort of scientific evidence to jam into the mouths of those who dare contest. Because, Global Warming (which IS a fact) is not exactly proof of the Green House Effect.
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I hear that Mr Blair has, or wants to at least, pass a law that will criminalise the "justification" of terrorism. That is, it will be illegal express understanding for the terrorists. Does this seem right? Isn't often one mans terrorist another man's freedom fighter and will this not turn towards FURTHER polarisation, more missconception and missunderstanding and ... more terrorism? WTF Mr Blar? I understand it. Sometimes. So arrest me you totalitarian fuck.
Will it soon be illegal to pass judgement on the policies of ones own government perhaps? Woohhooo where are we gooOOooing?
Someone said, recently, that the only counteraction towards terrorism is working for global equality. Now that is intelligent. Of course, this was not a politician making this statement...
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For now. buck up

C is for cookie, that's good enough for me

I can't believe it's over. The culmination of so many expectations exploded last night in the cacaphonic finale of Top Model 4. I feel emptier than yesterday, lighter, but with less to long for. More satisfied. I've learned so much from Tyra, not to mention her minions, Janice Dickinson - one of the worlds first super models -, Nigel Barker - prominent fashion photographer-, Nolé Marin - noted fashion editor and stylist-, and of course Mr and Mrs Jay.

I wish I could go on but i have laundry day today. Gotta go fluff and fold.

Bye

Tiramisú

"Oh, how I hated the photo where you look scared", he thought, and then a wave of nostalgia washed over and he was distracted by the swelling of a large heart in a small rib cage

You enjoy yourself, I'm gonna go ice my balls and spit up blood

I can recommend the Wedding Crashers. Excellent comedy with great actors Owen Wilson and Vince Vaughn. Hilarious.
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Tiddely um
Apparantly some people don't even answer to flirting text messages. That's what I hear anyway.
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I can't really recommend the Family Guy movie - The Stu Griffin story. "It was just too much fluff" to quote Darlene. OR maybe not enough fluff..
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No Im gonna go homeward bound

Fuck it. Bad day.

News says it's raining in New York

Chewbacca is my co-pilot. Ralph wiggum is my technical advisor.

Good weekend. Turmoil and relaxation in an unexpected mix. Now I'm trying to get a grip on work, but I seem to destroy considerably more than I repair and that makes me hesitant. Going home now. Need to write some suggestions for experiments by tomorrow.

"If you live in a river you must make friends with the crocodile"

Lather, Rinse, Repeat

Coffee and banana breaks
That girl is taller than a short stack of cakes

There's that dog again

It's becomning a habit, abuse or a second home; my mind flees to radiohead.com

care bears falling dead out of the sky.
the labour party claims it was their idea.
part of the peace process.
to educate small children in weighty matters such as
organised religion.
confused?
tori amoz.
liz hurley.
follow the yellow brick road.
renegade marxist terrorists.
don’t feel stupid.
birds falling dead out of the sky.
mother nature has her own special ways of fighting back.
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unforgiving .
pencil sharp.
well at least.
you look the part.

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Anonymous säger:
pero el bueno es que te sientes vivo.... tienes muchas suerte en esto
PerOskar-perfect blend of technology and magic säger:
es verdad, y yo tengo un corazon como un perrito; siempre corriendo para todas partes, sentiendo, querendo, muy facil a animar
Anonymous säger:
eh eh ...un perrito

A melon collie

In a word,
Rise like the sun
Fall like a pancake
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This weekend I dunno what to do. Gotany suggestions? That require minimum effort, naturally.. I will go townbound tomorrow (.. hey wait, maybe I'll go right now..) to buy some wine I ordered and pick up two rolls of developed DIA pictures. Exciting, but anticipation tells me not to get my hopes up (as one always does with photos, dang!). Tricky bit is that I don have a projector for dia pictures (dang! again).
Maybe I'll go down capital bound in the morrow. Pride festival and a friendofafriend is having a party that I'm not invited to but welcome to nonetheless.
BArring any unforeseen mishaps and hangovers I should be able to upload my lates photos sometime this weekend. Bare with me. Bare ass with me. I'm talkin to you, Robert.
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I think I'm gonna invent a desert or drink called melon collie. That sound like a plan for my state of mind. I want to get drunk and forget. Forget what? Exactly.
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Some actual information: If you didn't know, I am currently working at the Uppsala university as a research engineer developing some new kind of solar modules (for electricity). I recently got my employment extended to the end of the year and I have some kind of semi-promise of a PhD placement in the case our group receives funding (in my tired state I first spelled it findong..) for 3-4 yrs of continued research. If not, my job here will be finished and 2006 will be yet another great unknown to wrestle with. In my mind I'm thinking New York or Scotland, although I'd really just prefer to stay here. Well, whatever. I've been rolling long enough now, and without the proverbial moss it can get pretty darned cold sometimes. I could use something to cover me, wrap me up.
I guess I'm talkin about love again, it's like that band, it's always "Everything but the girl". Tired of hoping is what's called losing faith.
It's times like these I really love my friends and I am so effing thankful that they're here, everywhere to give me love. And sugar.
----====That's right I'm talking about you. THANK YOU=====-----

Onion

Loser hiding behind winning smile

More shameless ...

...stealing


so there i was.

wanted by the state and naked and covered in shit
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little skulls. witless helpless eurokids you will learn eventually. all one big happy village complete with slaves. look after the pennies and fuk evrybody else. be constructive in your analysis. we want none of your cnspircy shit here.
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the steering wheel through the ribs. the shadows swallowing my soul. fall through a blck hole and start again. justa shell remains bleeding on the pavement. you can stuf it with straw and dreess it in bright clothes to scare the crows but they will not be impressed. i dont understand a word you say and you seem so far away, your lips are cold. your eyes are beach stones. everything washes over you like a shipwreck.
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theres a story about
a place where it rains all the time and when people decide to kill themselves they stand with their faces turned to the sky mouths open until they drown

We can't stop here! This is bat-country..

I think I'm getting the Fear

Untouchable face

Enjoying the way a song can take you back to meet someone you used to be, years ago when life was different. I get the feeling that person had something to teach me..

Think I'm goin for a walk now
I feel a little unsteady
And I don't want nobody to follow me
Except maybe you

Morning glory

That morning when you look out of the window
and just wish and wish and wish
it was raining
it isn't

But I guess this has to be dealt with anyway
without the proper dramatic backdrop

They

They all died in the fire I started

They were wrong, so we drowned

It can make or break your day

Falling in love is easy
Climbing out of it.. not so much

It's the little touches that make a future solid enough to be destroyed


I know I haven't mentioned it in so many words, but I also have a new friend. Anna. Charming young woman. And as we say in sweden, "she has her head on a shaft". It's nice to have people around that want to hang out, even if your're not really going to do anything.. Actually that's more than nice, it's the proverbial shit, the bomb.

Gotta go and sneak in some work between the coffee and banana breaks.

Stay square

PS. yesterday I met a TV weatherman

I am no pitbull

If you leave me alone, I wont go looking for killings, run around barking or chase kids upp trees. My character is more feline and I think that without applied pressure I'd just sit around, lick my balls and look down upon the scurrying humans with a smilnig incomprehension. Miao.

A thanksgiving prayer

Thanks for the wild turkey and
the passenger pigeons, destined
to be shit out through wholesome
American guts.


Thanks for a continent to despoil
and poison.

Thanks for Indians to provide a
modicum of challenge and
danger.

Thanks for vast herds of bison to
kill and skin leaving the
carcasses to rot.

Thanks for bounties on wolves
and coyotes.

Thanks for the American dream,
To vulgarize and to falsify until
the bare lies shine through.

Thanks for the KKK.

For nigger-killin' lawmen,
feelin' their notches.

For decent church-goin' women,
with their mean, pinched, bitter,
evil faces.

Thanks for "Kill a Queer for
Christ" stickers.

Thanks for laboratory AIDS.

Thanks for Prohibition and the
war against drugs.

Thanks for a country where
nobody's allowed to mind the
own business.

Thanks for a nation of finks.

Yes, thanks for all the
memories-- all right let's see
your arms!

You always were a headache and
you always were a bore.

Thanks for the last and greatest
betrayal of the last and greatest
of human dreams.

-by William Seward Burroughs

Never.Never.Land

Now I have my Roller Blades. Right here. Well not right here at woirk, but right here in Uppsala, and if I hadn't been tired and forgotten this morn I wouldve taken them here to uni. Wroom. Onward with my head-cracking lifestyle.
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I also have my now even more broken camera-tripod. Lets shed a few tears for broken plastic..
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Why? Cusz my bruther came by yesterday on his way from Övik and dropped off some stuff of mine. Unfortunately not my bass amplifier, cause then I couldve rocked anyones world.
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I also have two (2) freeze beez. Getem while theyr hot.
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Your fantasies are unlikely. But beautiful.



Now scram. C U later

Touch screen

The songs for today are definetely Best of You and Friend of a Friend, both from the new Foo Fighters Album. I also like the video to Best of you, despite it's classical music video nature it sends some tremors through me. Check it out here.

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On the topic of current events, I just have to say that there was a warm feeling spreading through me a few days ago when the IRA, apparently unprovoked, laid down their weapons and, at least officially, abandoned the armed struggle. A response came, relatively quickly, as the british started to dismantle several guard towers in Northern Ireland. In a word, there is Hope.
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When the great imperial United States of America fall, what will rise to replace them? The European Union? China? India? He who lives shall see, I guess.
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LAcking proper inspiration, these following paragraphs were stolen from Radiohead.com

maKE peace with the world taking your seat on the plane
on this last flight out of new york this evening there is a bomb
children and families first please
excuse me have i got the window seat i asked for
i have to be able to see the ground
which is C?
neatly designed hand luggage
cattle herded to slaughter they hold their bags up and inch forward

bright gay colours appear sad and grey in the pressurised cabin
the feed is reheated
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everyone says itll be okay. just don't get freaked out. but i can't get the rhythm. sit on the steps with too much caffeine and a locked jaw i can't get the fu ing rhythm. yesterday was okay, tommorrow will be okay. im okay how are you iam fine thanks how are you im okay how are you? I hoPE YOUR OKAY too.
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a million and one pinpricks in the one youloVe HOPIng she ll
give up on yu so youd r e a l l y hav someone tobLame

boy
you hav got to get your house in
order


Do you love that or hate that? I love it. And if you don't get it, it probably wasn't meant for you.
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...and now even the King of Sweden has realised it's high time to start saving our planet before her adolescent behaviour sends her to a ditch somewhere, wrapped in plastic, bound and gagged by her inhabitants..

I am liking it...

Hes never been in love
But he knows just what love is
He says nevermind
And no one speaks

He thinks he drinks too much
Cause when he tells his two best friends
I think I drink too much
No one speaks


...the new Foo Fighters album that is

Drain pipe dream

Like grass and children, love can grow on rainy days as well