If I stopped lying I'd just disappoint you

Regarding the previous whining post and it's comment, I just thought I should underline and develop.
I've gotten a lot of positive responses, compliments and support since the introduction of my web page. In fact, those responses far outnumber any negative responses. And I am very glad for it. I wasn't really whining, actually, it was more like a reaction at the fact that the first response, that is the quickest, was a negative one. Also, it did shake me up a little at first, but since I didn't even know the guy it evaporated rapidly. The point I wanted to make with my original post was that I believe that in the internet communication channel is much easier for people to be rude to strangers, even if they would never do such a thing in real life.

And since I'm here: Thanks everybody for your very flattering comments and messages regarding my photos. Luv ya

Now I gotta works

Can you guess who?

So unimpressed but so in awe
Such a saint but such a whore
So self aware so full of shit
So indecisive so adamant

I'm contemplating thinking about thinking
It's overrated just get another drink and
Watch me come undone

They're selling razor blades and mirrors in the street
I pray that when I'm coming down you'll be asleep
If I ever hurt you your revenge will be so sweet
Because I'm scum, and I'm your son,
I come undone

The glory of feedback and the unkindness of strangers

So, on "launching"/announcing my new website I sent an email to a bunch of people, including to the mailinglist ("fotonorr") of my photo club. Seeing as the main content of my site was photographs, I thought that would be quite alright. Since I am a bit of a joker, I tweaked the actual content of the message to appear as one of many spam/bullshit emails. Just for kicks (you can read the content of the message :below:), you know.
Well, having done this turned out to star a chain reaction which resulted in my very first feedback to look like this:

Re: [fotonorr] What you need to know
From: Jesper Lundgren (email adress omitted)
Date: Saturday, 6 January, 2007 10:19:46 PM
To: Per -Oskar Westin [peroskarwestin@yahoo.co.uk]

IDIOT

I always considered that one of the objectives of art was to provoke and stir up feelings, but I hadn't realised that I would acquire that target so fast... No, but seriously, I was actually surprised to see that someone was so offended by the email (i doubt his comment was regarding my site content) as to actually send such a response. And my second reaction was that it's kind of a shame that the ones that actually take the time to respond are the ones who dislike something.
But I guess, the fault is my own for trying to get reactions out of people. So here's to you, anonymous jerk with no sense of humour or decency:
Thanks for noticing.

2006 was a lot of guitar, actually

It's high time to make a summary of 2006, musicwise. Usually, looking back at the new music and artists you've heard the last year makes you remember who was there, who passed you that cd or mp3, or what song was playing when you fooled around with that girl. To help me summarize, I have my :iTunes: playlist and my :Last.fm: statistics.

I might not be razor sharp in my assessment of chronology etc. I might even mistakenly include some music from 2005 (the memory is a funny thing, tends to mix things up and condense them together). And to be clear, I mean what I've been listening to. I don't really care when things were released.

iTunes most played (arbitrarily rearranged to suit my fancy)

:The Decemberists: - Picaresque
Is one of these records I'm really not that sure is from 2005 or 2006. But clearly I've been listening to it alot, and it stands out thanks to the characteristic voice of the singer, and the slightly slavic influences in the music.

:Kings of Convenience:

Not a new finding, but an ever present favourite.

:Tears for Fears:

It came as a total surprise when I saw them as a few of the most played songs. But then I remembered a few cds I got a hold of late last year, old TFF greats, which will explain it.

I had to scroll down a little and interpolate to get to the ones that feel new.

:Damien Rice: - 9

Damien released his second album this fall, and it soared into my top most played, effortlessly as a helium-filled baloon. Damiens album is quite raw, technically, with simple recordings and arrangements that allow his beautiful and emotional voice carry the sparse poetry of his lyrics into your head.

:Lilium: - Transmissions of all the good byes

This is really one of the pow! records of the year. Two guys from the group :16 horsepower: wrote some music and gathered with them a few eclectic musicians and singers to fuse a timeless masterpiece. Get it. Now.

:Psapp: - Tiger, my friend

Light, airy music, that I would liken to triphop, but lets not argue about that. It's eclectic. It's groovy as a hammock. And the sound is unique.

Of course :Regina Spektor: - Begin to hope

Regina takes her singing to a higher level. No, a higher plane of existance. It's gorgeous, all mixed up, and impossible not to love.

and finally :The White Birch: - Star is just a sun
which I ordered by recommendation (the recommendation was years ago..) of a friend. At first I didn't like i. Too whimpy voice. To slow and unimpressive. But then the music grew, like a slow sunrise, and settled at that point just before the first slice of solar disc peeks above the horizon. It is serene, calm, both ominous and hopeful, and hopelessly beautiful.

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So, then I flipped to last.fm and the truth broadens. Because in the top five, along with the artists I've been listening to for years, is an englishman that I never took notice of until my girlfriend sneakily introduced him to me this year. At first I wasn't that impressed, but when I borrowed

:David Gray: - Lost songs

It just grew and grew. And now I love him, and am not surprised at the 260 plays registered at last.fm, since I know I mosly listened to him on my portable player ther real number will be a lot larger. Good lyrics. Guitar singer/songwriting with some good studio work as well. I listened to several of his albums this year but Lost songs is the most outstanding in my memory.

:Thom Yorke: - The Eraser

Long awaited debut album. Reverberating. Breathtaking. Just right.

:Midaircondo: - Shopping for images

I had the fortune to see Midaircondo while attending the Stockholm jazz celebration in march, and was stunned. Three ridiculously beautiful girls, with a laptop each, some samplers and some instruments rocked the entire house. To me, this was something so rare as something truly new, unheard of before. It was technically impressing, musically inspired, and above all (always above all) it was beautiful. Live improvisation and musical cooperation as I had never seen it, made the show totally spellbinding. I bought the cd that night (which of course can never convey the same experience as the live one, but still is good) and also had the fortune of catching them again at the Arvika Festival last summer.

Mixed in with all of this, it was the old favourites - Tom Waits, Ani Difranco, Tori Amos, Foo Fighter, Diane Cluck, Company Flow, Deltron 3030, Tiger Lou and Radiohead - that made my musical 2006.

New site launch

Hi
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You are so lucky.

Now, go to

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and enjoy responsibly.

Touch and then stay in touch.

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:peroskar:at: yahoo.co. uk

BFF

Visit the Perry Bible Fellowship for some lovely comics...

Soon this place will be to small

Good day today. I felt a reverberating joy of approaching a life that I have only encountered by happenstance earlier. I left the door at 7:30 this morning and returned at 00'00. I revel in the ability, the state of readiness, that allows one to live out the days more or less independently of ones home. I hadn't any plans when I went to work this morning. But I did do a double take, making sure I had some of the essentials that spontaneity might require: money, condoms, mittens and a pen and pad. As it turned out on this particular day all i needed was the mittens, but still..
After work I passed by my girlfriends house, and she made me dinner. I hope I thanked her properly. While there I also got to feel like "a man" since I managed to show her some things to do with her new computer. Gosh.
Then a friend of mine had put forward the idea of whisky and helping him with his new mac. I did go there with the intention of being helpful, but me and his other friend ended up watching the original John Carpenter "Attack on Precinct 13" while my friend was left to face the endless fight with soft and hard ware on his own. I think things worked out.

Anyway, if you take something away from this rant is that I profoundly believe that autonomy on a individual level is a great source for (the sensation and appreciation of) freedom, and can be a great gateway to unexpected and lovely things. Keep your iPods close, and your VISA closer, that you may go where you choose, when you choose, and enjoy the way there.

Good night. Stay tuned. I will be trying to claw my way back to regular blogging.
Funny, no quotes this time... WoooOOOooo

Actually

New pictures are up @pixbox. Check it out here. It's from a gig last friday by some friends.

Yeah I got soul. Right by the exit. Next to the blues.

Leela James shows where the cupboard should stand. I am falling back in love with "black" music.

Somebody play on the guitar strings
Makes me think of my favorite songs
Reminds me of when I heard Aretha sing
Gladys, Tina, and Chaka Khan
Can't go back to yesterday
But can we just put the thongs away

And fall back in love with music
Nothin' but the music
Oh

Everybody knows that Marvin's gone
Still I gotta tell you what's going on
Said the music gone

Where'd the soul go?
It's all about the video
We don't sing no more
Where's the music gone?

Where'd the music go?
It's all just for the dough
It ain't soul no more
Where's the music gone?


Still hear Donny playin' them keys
Singin' one day we'll all be free
Can't even turn on my radio
Somebody hollerin' bout a bitch or a ho

Jeff

I just transcribed some lyrics off a great album, "Big Amazing Songs" by Jeff Harms. I am in love with one of his songs, and since I (to my alarm and surprise) couldn't find the lyrics online, I just had to sit down and write them down as I listened. Anyway, its a fascinating lyric. Here it is:

you said hey lets get a beer
it might be nice to go out together
what if we just stop here
it's cold and I, I need a sweater

i feel it's never clear
when to look for the change in the weather
when to smile when pull you near
does it happend today
will I, will I wait forever

you said remember on that back road
just past Windermere [?]
the heat was stuck on
we sweat through the leather

you had a map and I was trying to steer
we were laughing and having the greatest time ever
we lost control and we hit a deer
the car jumped and the axel was severed

you say you're clairvoyant
you wanna be clear
and you just
can't see us together

in that small moment so full of fear
just a few seconds lasted forever
my head was ringing there was blood in my ear
and police sirens and a man with a lever

your eyes cut through me
like those steel cutting shears
you said not to leave you
I promised I'd never

we have our differences
but they wont interfere
you're so beauitiful
and you said once I'm clever

I'm the one boy who doesn't leer
at the scar that slices across your shoulder
you used to dream of us and the life, the children we would reer
me and a house and a church and whatever

you say you've grown a lot since then
you feel wiser and freer
you said you don't wanna leave
you just stared at the river

you said hey let's get a beer
it might be nice to go out together
what if we just stop here
it's cold and I need a sweater

i feel it's never clear
when to look for the change in the weather
when to smile when to pull you near
does it happend today
will I wait forever

I keep trying to go to bed at a reasonable hour

For all of you who are fans of Alain Chabat, I recommend you warmly to go see the film "The Science of Sleep" by Michel Gondry. He does a formidable supporting role, being a complete ass, and a very funny one as well. He speaks surprisingly good english. And it was an interesting film for other reasons. Charming, funny, and beautifully different.

And for the Fighter, I quote Ani,

"So many sheep
I quit counting
Sleepless and embarrassed
'Bout the way that I feel
Trying to make mole hills out of mountains
Building base camp
At the bottom
Of a really Big Deal"

Ninja fun

"Have I stolen the hearts of a few lovely ladies? Guilty! Unfortunately I was not able to give them back to them before they bled to death."

What

"What if your ambition is to get high and watch cartoons?"

I think it's a pomeranian

Official

Here's the official press release:

http://www.solibro.se/pdf/pressrelease_20061123.pdf

Good news for my homies (and my future)

Q-Cells to set up photovoltaic technology jv with Sweden's Solibro AB
(Forbes)

Uppsalaföretag i storaffär

En halv miljard kronor. Det är vad tyska Q-Cells investerar för att starta industriell produktion av Uppsalaföretaget Solibro AB:s solceller. Storaffären blev klar på torsdagen.

(Uppsala Nya Tidning)

Tyskar köper svenska solceller
2006-11-24: TT
Världens näst största tillverkare av solceller, tyska Q-Cells, investerar en halv miljard kronor för att starta industriell produktion av Uppsalaföretaget Solibro AB:s solceller.
(Di.se, DN.se)

Buy junk, sell antiques

- Spotted the line on a book cover "The art of looking sideways -

Tonight I am getting on a plane for Helsinki, Finland. I am to participate in a seminar on PV encapsulation (basically my field of work) tomorrow, and then fly right back home. I feel so businesslike, so adult. I think the seminar will be really interesting, and I've never been in Helsinki, so I hope I get to wander around some tonight and tomorrow before my flight.

Drunk on sleep

I keep listening over and over to the same songs.

I know if I should live one hundred years
I'ld never see another face like yours
On stranger seas or brighter shores
Cos I know
That my love is real

Check out davidgray.com.

www.banksy.co.uk


(Although the site seemed to have some server issues just now)

Will you be my dance partner?

This weekend I went to a ball, yeah a proper one with ballroom dancing and all that jazz. Of course, I'm a lot to shy and don't feel comfortable at all on such a dance floor, so I spent my time chatting and drinking. But I'm getting ahead of myself here. First of all, the Ball was the Norrland Nation Autumn Feast, held traditionally every year, and I was invited in my capacity of Nation Photographer. Basically, there was a long dinner (4-5 hrs) including various speeches, entertainments and singing. No doucht about it, the food was great, the wine was good, and the entertainment was for the most part excellent. Since I consider myself somewhat of a shy person, these kinds of events always fill me with a little dread. Walking around a room, with a bunch of semi-strangers, people that I may recognise, and that recognise me, but whom I feel no kinship with, no confidence in, no love for. Thankfully, I could spend some of my time running around with my camera and feeling that I had a great excuse not to talk to strangers. And then of course, I eventually loosen up and stumble into conversation with people. Met some nice Fins, and we spoke about the importance of Quality, and Experience, things that I feel might be underrated more and more these days. Then I chatted with a true Norrlänning (in spite of the nation title, not all members are from the Motherland up north) instead of dancing (see above, dancing scares me), which was nice. Harcore students stay on to the second dinner, which starts at 2:00 am, with a somewhat less pretentious menu; Pytt i Panna, which is a swedish dish consisting of diced onions, potatoes, sausage, and some other veg like perhaps carrots; anyway all diced and fried together. Sometimes served with a fried egg on top. However, I am not hardcore anymore, so I walked home, escorting a lady on my way (trying to be the gentleman I want to be).
Hmm. I guess I'll post a link when the pictures have been uploaded.
Cha!

The animals were gone

The new Damien Rice album may be slightly uneven. But at the same time, it is partially demonic in its ability to pierce my heart when I listen. For some wonderful reason Damien has chosen to spend quite some time in front of the piano, and many of the songs are more piano-based than guitar based. The album is more introspective, more sad in some places than "O", and more a solo-album than "O", where the band played a great part in the sound of the recording. On "9", mr Rice plays several of the songs completely solo, and this simplicity and rawness makes it all the more worthwhile in the current musical climate. An example is Elephant, where the album version seems even more stripped down than some of the live recordings I've come across. The listener is left with only a guitar and Damiens voice to lean on. Another lovely little detail is that the first song on the album starts with Lisa singing. Even though her presence is not very pronounced on the album as a whole. And last but not least, the lyrics are fresh, Damien finds some new metaphores that have not been written in neon just yet, and writes a world of wood and woodys - of accidental songs and accidental babies.

Somehow I connect Damien to Tiger Lou. Maybe because they're both male, young, solo artists. OR maybe because they're both talanted to the point of genious, phenomenal songwriters who keep things simple and still new. I mean, their music isn't much alike.

Well. just hear it, ok?
Flash Gordon out.

A long day's journey into night

"Who want to see life as it really is, if it can be avoided?"

Beatifully sparse decor. Good acting. Some humor, lots of darkness.

Mary Chrismas

Logistical information.

I will go uppa north on the 21st of december by train. I will be staying, as far as I know, for the entire time in my parents house on the Horny Island. It seems at this point most likely that I will be staying up there until the 1st Jan, when I will descend upon Uppsala yet again.

Party?
People!

Musical parapsychology

1. How are you feeling today?
G.U.B.N.U.F. - Bugge Wesseltoft

2. Will you get far in life?
Marco Polo - Loreena McKennitt

3. How do your friends see you?
Goodnight song - Tears For Fears

4. Will you get married?
You gonna need my help - Muddy Waters

5. What is your life's theme song?
Eminem Freestyle (over WW3 Beat)

6. What is the story of your life?
Working Girl - Jeff Harms

7. What was high school like?
Little Earthquakes (live) - Tori Amos

8. How can you get ahead in life?
Interlude - Muse

9. What is tomorrow going to be like?
the Optimist - Turin Brakes

10. What is the best thing about your friends?
Could Well be in - The Streets

11. What is in store for the next weekend?
Dogs - Pink Floyd

12. What song best describes you?
Cradle and All - Ani Difranco

13. How is your life going?
Hold on - Lou reed

14. What song will play at your funeral?
Hell is round the corner - Tricky (hahaha, didn't cheat, I swear!)

15. How does the world see you?
The one you love - Rufus wainwright

16. Will you have a happy life?
Nixon - Tiger Lou

17. What do your friends really think of you?
time and time again - counting crows

18. What song describes the person you're attracted to?
gratitude - ani difranco

19. What message would you like to tell the next generation?
Second intermission -Ani difranco

20. Do you have a deep dark secret?
Singles party - Greyboy

21. Do people secretly lust after me?
Horses in my dreams - PJ harvey

22. How can I make myself happy?
could well be in - the streets

23. Will I ever have children?
I got you under my skin - Diana Krall

24. What's some good advice for me?
Mr Moon - Jamiroquai

25. How will I be remembered?
No way - Pearl Jam

26. What is my signature dance song?
Wonderwall - Radiohead making fun of oasis

So cheap and juicy

Friends,
i had an exam today. Oh, wow, it always feels so good afterwards. Such a liberation. I am really really tired now, and I wont stay up late tonight. Please have oversight of all the spelling errors that might be caised by myu mentalstate.
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O, and heres some more good news. I have got 7 fresh albums in my room. Yesterday I finally went and bought the new Regina Spektor. Begin to hope. And so, when I got home I had a little notice from Amazon.com on muy floor. A beautiful little order containing ;
Ani Difranco - Reprieve 2006
Ani Difranco - Live at carnegie hall official vootleg.
Kaki king - Everybody loves you
Kaki king - Legs to make us longer
Lilium - Transmissions of all the goodbyes
Lilium - Short stories
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And what to say? Ani has done it again. That is, another wonderful and beautiful reason not to just download an album. The fiber paper digipack with a textured print is really nice. Let's see what the contents of the cd are. But I don't expect anything extravagant. She seems set in her same way for the last three albums, and this one sounds a lot like them. Am more anticipative of the live one. I think it may be great.
Then there's the all new kaki king. I really have only listened to a few songs, and also she's an all instrumental gal on these, her first two, albums. I am often looking for something new, something just slightly different, and her guitar-vituosity may well be something of a vitamin injection into my musical life.
And then the lilium records. Short stories I've listened intensely to for a while. It is, hands down, one in the 20 best albums I've ever heard. Much thanks to it's eclectic style, using different singers and lyricists for many of the songs, mixing languages, and a very very beautiful studio work and instrumentation. Their first albym, Transmissions of.. seems to be an all instrumental piece. Shame, but whos to say it isnt great anyway.
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And Begin to hope, by Regina Spektor. Well, it's hardly as blow you away great as Soviet Kitsch, but shes got a lovely voice, and a quirky diction that works. And works well.
So far, I especially like the bluesy Lady and the longing and sad Summer.
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Well. Thats me signing off
gnight

oh, and if anyone could help me to choose a new mobile, thatd be great.
Sonyericsson W700, K610, K510 are on my list.

Heard about it through the semicrystalline poly-iso-butylene

New pictures up on flickr.
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Still working hard so no real updates going on for the site or other sh**t.
--
I am going to Gothenburg on the 19th and staying til the 22nd, so holler if you want me!
-
Wowsa, I am so totally stressed out. I think I may crash and burn on these courses I'm taking. But then again, so far everything I've ever done has proven to be easier than expected and why should this be any different. And on the other hand, if I should fail these courses it'll be a new and probably fruitful experience.
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Sadly, the stress is always a good catalyst for ideas. My photographic creativity is bubbling under the surface but there is no time to let it burst out.
Other plans include a website, music, and bowling.
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A lot more than a 1000 words

Pictures from latest shenanigans:
- Evening
- Samarret

Other that photoing, I'm working my already skimpy little ass off with courses in Physics of Semiconductor Devices, Polymer Mechanics and The Art of Measurement.
So you can imagine I don't really have a lot of time left to be writing on this little page.
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FYI, I am coming/going home to Örnsköldsvik this weekend. Gie me a shout if you wish to frollic.

Until next time
Wow me

Ils disent qu'elle est trop belle pour moi

Parfois quand on se voit
Semblant que c'est pas exprès
Avec ses yeux mouillants
Elle dit qu'elle partira
Elle dit qu'elle me suivra
Alors pour un instant
Pour un instant seulement
Alors moi je la crois Monsieur
Pour un instant
Pour un instant seulement

Qué and A

LAST PERSON:
1. Slept in your bed besides you? Harry
2. Whos bed you slept in? Harrys
3. Saw you cry? Harry (this is getting monotonous, ney?)
4. You saw a movie with? Harry (I aint kiddin man)
5. You went to the mall with? hmm, mall.. well that would be Karin in Dresden
6. You went to dinner with? My entire deparment tonight...
7. You talked on the phone with? According to my mobile: Dani
8. Broke your heart? wow, thats a good question.. CP probably, if we're talking properly broken
9. Made you laugh? Well, I must've laughed tonigt.. Ulf?

WOULD YOU RATHER?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? Tongue
2. Be serious or be funny? Nothing is serious, so funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk? whole fat milk fo real
4. Die in a fire or drown? No way in hellsinki would I choose to burn, so drown i guess
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Wats rong wid parents? I like mine. I squish my enemies like chestnuts on the sidewalk.

ARE YOU..
1. Simple or complicated? simple, but no one would ever guess..
2. Gay? Nay!
3. Hardcore? We are all soft and pulpy. Ask any surgeon. Peaches are hardcore.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY !!
1. Do you like anyone? WtF mate? Take a big whopping guess when you read through the preceding lines.
2. Do they know it? She better know it..

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon? sun
2. Winter or Fall? good question, seasons are there for their relative excellence... the beauty is in the variations.. fall is beautiful though
3. Left or right? well, left i guess, I'm a little gauche..
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? 2 best friends. thats the way I work. acquaintances are murals on the walls of life.
5. Sun or rain? sun, again, you twatt
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? VAnilla Ice dude

ABOUT YOU!
1. What time is it? 01:29
2. Name? P to the O to the W-E-S. Well actually it's Per Oskar
3. Nickname(s): P-O, that's about it. No one ever managed to give me a nick that stuck. Well, maybe the Pimp. The Tapdancingpimp.
4. Where were you born? Ornskoldsvik.
5. What is your birthdate? Guy Fawkes night
6. What do you want? just Her and Time
7. Where do you want to live? in the ocean, on a mountain, by the beach
8. How many kids do you want? dunno. one?
9. You want to get married? don't really care.. its a formality

UNIQUE!
1. Nervous Habits: bite nails, drumming hands,
2. Can you roll your tongue? yup
3. Can you raise one eyebrow? fink so
4. Can you cross your eyes? ja
5. Do you make your bed daily? nope
6. Which shoe goes on first? rrrrrright
7. Ever thrown one at someone? a shoe? no
8. On average, how much money do you carry with you? I would say 100 SEK ~10€
9. What jewelry do you wear? one piece of eyebrow piercing

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? I like my spaghetti like I like my women..
3. Favorite ice cream: whichever is closest to my mouth
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet? two?
5. Do you cook? Does the Pope shit in the woods?

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU? (YES OR NO)
1. Had sex: yes
2. Bought somthing you didn't need: oh yeah
3. Kissed someone: yes!
4. Sang in front of people: yes, both solo and in a comforting mass
5. Been hugged: :D
6. Felt stupid: every day
7. Missed someone: yes!!
8. Got drunk: right now
9. Got high: no
10. Danced Crazy: not sure, no I guess
11. Gotten your hair cut: no
12. Cried: just a little
13. Lied: no big ones.. maybe tried to impress some coworkers?